Broken Revenge, Chapter 7
Nov. 13th, 2005 07:04 pmBroken Revenge
Chapter Seven, Beta'ed by the Wonderful Velvet Virago
Previous Chapters of Beautiful Broken and Broken Revenge
Ya'll know by now this has warnings on its warnings, right? This series is NOT for minors or ANYONE easily squicked.
"Does everyone know his place?" Angel asked as the four of them stood in the shadows of one of Sunnydale's oldest cemeteries, one that happened to be close enough to the Hellmouth that Xander would have been able to see the top of Sunnydale High if he hadn't helped blow the place to pieces.
"Wesley?" Angel asked.
"I'll cast the congelo spell and keep it up as long as possible."
"Xander?" At Angel's question, Xander cast a quick glance toward Spike who gave a small nod.
"I'll defend Wesley while he does the jello thing."
"Congelo!" Wesley snapped while Spike laughed.
"Spike?" Angel continued, ignoring the glares between Wesley and Spike.
"I'm bloody killin' anythin' that moves," Spike said as he waggled his eyebrows at Wesley.
"Try to limit yourself to killing this new Master's minions," Angel said dryly.
"Ya used to be a lot more fun, Peaches," Spike answered as he sat back on a headstone.
"You're the one who asked for help, William," Angel said through tight lips.
"Oi, it was that or make m’self a bunch of minions to use as cannon fodder."
"William," Angel growled. Xander couldn't contain a small snort of laughter at the sight of Spike getting his sire completely wound up. Spike looked over and gave him a wide grin and a wink while Angel rolled his eyes and turned away muttering.
"You two stay here and look helpless, we're going to circle and see if we can't flush out some vampires. I'm feeling a need to kill something myself," Angel said as he started walking.
"We'll be close, just come if ya hear Angel scream for help, yeah?" Spike said with an intense look at Xander. Xander gazed back confidently.
"Yes, Master," he answered as he rested his hands on his knives. Spike turned and disappeared into the trees, walking in the opposite direction as Angel had.
Xander felt like bouncing on the balls of his feet the way he'd so often seen his Master do, but instead he sat waiting on a stone bench with his fists curled around his knives. The old Xander would never have been so patient, he realized with a start. A tiny, hesitant bubble of pride flickered through him.
"Are you alright then?" Xander looked over towards Wesley in surprise, trying to figure out what he could've said or done to give the former watcher the idea that he wasn't. After a long silence, Xander finally realized he was going to have to answer.
"I'm fine." Xander wondered what he must look like to the other man's eyes. After all, Wesley had known him before Leshar and before Lirowaus and before him losing his mind. Before becoming this new being, bonded to a Master who he once couldn’t stand to be in the same room with.
"It's just that you seem rather… I don't know… subdued." It wasn’t exactly a question, and so Xander didn't bother to answer, instead divided his time between looking at Wesley curiously and scanning the cemetery. Wesley sighed. "You must admit that most of the time we were together in Sunnydale, between you and Miss Rosenberg, a small city could have been powered off of the energy you two exuded." Xander thought about that comment for several moments while he stared out at the dark shapes of the trees and the shadowed outlines of the gravestones.
"I just don't show my excitement now," he finally said. Wesley frowned a little.
"Yes, quite. I can see why Giles would be concerned."
"You talked to Giles about me?" Xander didn't mean for his voice to get that sharp, and he took a couple of deep breaths to get control of his emotions again.
"Giles and I have spoken," Wesley said in a guarded tone. Those two of them discussing just how messed up *he* was suddenly struck Xander as the most hypocritical thing that he had ever heard. After all, Giles wasn't exactly in good shape himself, and at least Xander could admit that he was completely and totally screwed up. That gave him one up on Giles.
Xander would have considered telling Wesley at least some part of this, but a stirring in the trees distracted him. He turned to look at a group of tall elms that stood over a stone mausoleum at the far side of the cemetery. There it was again. One of the tree's leaves shimmered and danced for a moment as though something had hit the trunk hard enough to make all the branches shake. Xander stood and took a step forward as he drew his longer knife. The cool metal in his hand gave him confidence, and he could feel his adrenaline start to rise as he scanned the rest of the cemetery for other signs of movement.
"Spike," Xander said in a normal tone of voice, confident that Spike would still hear him. "Something's up at the north end."
"Xander, did you see something?" Wesley stepped up behind him, and Xander ignored the watcher in favor of trying to identify any possible enemies. No, Wesley, he hadn't seen anything, he just wanted to send his Master off on a wild goose chase in the middle of trying to flush out the invading Master Vampire. Xander bit off any sharp words, but he couldn't keep from rolling his eyes.
Xander spun at the sound of something scraping rock to his right. It was so loud that even Wesley heard because the watcher muttered a strange English curse under his breath before beginning to chant.
Xander smiled wickedly at the night and bent his knees a little as he considered the darkness around him. Keeping his sol knife in his right hand, he pulled a stake out of his waistband with his left as he started circling Wesley. Wesley's hands gripped a crossbow, but the man made no effort to actually aim since he was concentrating solely on the magical spell that Xander could feel start to slide around him, the power slipping over his skin like a snake.
A ghost of a feeling warned Xander that someone was behind him, and he spun with both weapons ready to take out the intruder, but he froze when he realized that it was Angel.
"They're coming," Angel said, and Xander barely avoided giving a hearty 'no duh' at the vampire's words. Instead he moved over to Wesley's right side, leaving Angel to guard Wesley's left side. "Where the hell is William?" Angel growled, but Xander knew that his Master would be near. Rather than worry about where Spike was, Xander concentrated on himself and the job his Master trusted him to do.
When the attack finally came, it came far more suddenly than Xander had expected. One moment the cemetery appeared to be abandoned, silent even of the normal sounds of night, which in and of itself was rather suspicious. The next moment a dozen vampires poured in from all directions, noiselessly running across the grass and darting between the headstones. Xander didn't waste his time with words, but instead fell into a fighting crouch, prepared to defend himself and Wesley.
As the vampires surged toward them, Wesley's spell reached out; Xander watched as his enemies' motions became awkward and slow. However, these were not helpless fledges who fled at the first sign of trouble. Of course, they weren't master vampires either, but they were old enough that they didn't panic. Instead they pushed forward in groups of three and four and Xander waited calmly for the first wave of attackers to reach him.
There were far too many vampires for Xander to get fancy, especially since he had to hold position and defend Wesley. So as the first vampire reached him, a curly red-haired man with a wide nose, Xander struck out with the blade of his golden Sol knife. The metal sliced through flesh and divided bone, turning the vampire to instant dust.
Xander didn't have time to celebrate, though. A second vampire was already on him, close enough to grab his arm. Xander slammed the stake home and pulled it out before the vampire even had time to turn to dust. Lunging forward through the cloud formed by the second vampire's death, Xander slashed at the third vampire. He missed the killing blow that he had intended, but his knife sliced her shoulder and arm, forcing the vampire to fall back.
Xander didn't have time to give chase, and so he turned on another of the sluggish attackers. This time he thrust forward with the stake, lodging it in the vampire's back with one hand while he used a vicious backhand to send his knife through the vampire's neck. Xander was breathing hard now, and he stepped back toward Wesley as he tried to catch his breath. His arms already ached from the force of his blows, his knife sending vibrations up through him as the metal struck bone. But Xander had learned to love that ache. It reminded him that as much as demons could hurt him, he could hurt them back.
Taking a quick glance around, he saw Angel was making short work of the vampires on his side. Wesley meanwhile continued to chant, and Xander shivered as the magical waves crawled over him. But this moment of reflection didn't last long since more attackers rushed in.
A dark-skinned man with dark, deep eyes ripped the stake from Xander's hand only to have Xander's knife halve his skull straight down the middle. Xander hadn't even been sure that that would kill a vampire, but because of how the vampire had grabbed his arm, it was the only strike he could make. It obviously worked because the vampire collapsed into dust before Xander's stake, which it had tossed aside, even hit the ground.
Xander pulled his silver Luna knife in one arcing motion as he brought his Sol knife down into the backbone of a vampire tossed in his direction by Angel. Wesley's chanting took on a shrill edge of desperation, and Xander danced to one side to avoid a vampire's fist as he glanced over at the watcher. Angel was several yards away battling his own group of vampires, and Wesley was continuing to chant while aiming his crossbow at a blonde woman who had managed to get past the two defenders.
Xander brought an elbow down into his own adversary's face, feeling the nose break under the pressure before he followed that up with a quick beheading. By that time, Wesley had already let fly the crossbow bolt. Even while distracted by the chanting, Wesley's aim proved true, and the woman disintegrated into a cloud of ash and dust. However two more vampires closed on Wesley's position. Xander hurried to defend the man. There were so many vampires that without the spell's assistance, none of them had a fighting chance. Even though he had feared that Wesley would give up the chanting in favor of defending his life, Wesley continued to chant even while striking out at the first vampire with his stake.
The second vampire was so focused on Wesley that she never saw the blade that severed her head from her body. Xander felt a grim satisfaction, and he turned to deal with the second attacker. However, Wesley knelt on one knee in the grass, still chanting, while dust and ash slowly settled to the ground. Xander moved closer to Wesley as he took up a defensive position again.
Xander knew that his fighting skills had improved tremendously since he had started fighting with Spike. Of course, when your two choices were to get better at fighting or get your ass kicked by a 120 year old Master Vampire, improvement was a given. However, with Wesley's spell he discovered a whole new level of demon fighting. Now the demons were the ones who were slow and awkward and Xander could dance between them, striking out at the head of one with a golden blade, while sinking a silver blade deep into the belly of another.
In the back of his mind, Xander was aware of the fact that the waves of demons were thinning, but he forced himself to stay focused on killing as many of them as he could reach. When Wesley’s voice stilled, Xander had a moment of shining panic where he thought that he had failed. He whirled around, determined to kill whatever demon had forced Wesley to stop his spell-casting, but instead of finding another attacker, he found Wesley standing under a tree next to Angel. Both were looking around at the cemetery.
Xander watched as two stray vampires took off across the grass with their newly recovered speed, and Xander took one running step in their direction. Then he stopped. There was the whole 'he would never catch them without the spell slowing them down' thing, but more than that, he didn't want a repeat of Spike's anger. He really didn't think Angel and Wesley needed to watch him get put into a punishment position or get spanked. And really, if they did want to see that, Xander didn't want to know they wanted to see that because of the whole ew factor, well, that and his ego could do without either of them getting to see that little humiliation.
Until then, Xander hadn't noticed his master's absence, but now he looked around the empty cemetery. The moon shone bright enough to cast long, indistinct shadows at the base of each gravestone and the trees' leaves made a gentle chittering sound. However, other than Wesley and Angel, he didn't see any movement. Xander tightened his fists around his knives as he cast a panicked glance toward the far sides of the cemetery. He saw only distant brick walls, the tall mausoleums, and the arched gateway marking the entrance to the cemetery. No matter where he looked, there was no Spike.
Xander set off for the copse of trees where he'd seen Spike disappear before the fight. A thin little voice in the back of his mind pointed out that if Spike were dead, there wouldn’t be anything left to find. However, Xander was good ignoring that little voice. Hell, he'd been doing it for years. He set off with a determined stride that took him within a few feet of Wesley and Angel.
"Xander?" Angel said as Xander marched past them, intent on his goal.
"Xander, hold on!" Angel called, and Xander just ignored him with the same determination with which he had once ignored his math teacher, Mr. Phillips.
"Xander!" Angel called again as Xander left the vampire behind. When Angel's heavy hand fell on Xander's shoulder, he simply rolled his shoulder and shrugged to one side to get rid of the unwanted touch. However, the hand came again, and this time it held his shoulder more firmly. Unable to continue forward, Xander turned with an angry scowl.
"What?" Xander snapped and then he took a couple of deep breaths as he tried to control the anger and fear.
"Xander, just hold on a minute," Angel suggested. However Xander wasn't interested in any suggestions.
"I need to find Spike," Xander said almost desperately, and then he realized how unnecessary those words must have been since he didn't have any other possible reason for walking off in the first place. However, Angel didn't seem impressed with his needs because the large hand remained on his shoulder. "Damn it, let go," Xander demanded as the panic rose.
"Xander, we'll go together, but we need to go find Willow first. She'll be able to cast a spell to find him." Xander didn't know what annoyed him more -- the fact that Angel was physically stopping him from his goal or the fact that Angel was talking to him as though he were three years old and mentally challenged. Okay, the mentally challenged part might be debatable, but he was definitely older than three. And he certainly wasn't going to waste precious time going to Willow.
"You go get Willow. I'm going to find Spike." Xander tried to take a step backwards and yank his arm out of Angel's grip, but the vampire didn't budge.
"Xander," Angel said in that same condescending tone.
"Deadboy," Xander sneered in his own snottiest tone. Behind him he could hear Wesley gasp, but he didn't have time for Wesley's crap either. "Get your fucking hand off me," Xander demanded when the snotty tone of voice didn't work.
"Angel," Wesley said from behind, "perhaps you should let Xander go." Xander craned his neck around to look at Wesley in surprise. Where he had expected to see pity or some self-assured superiority, instead he only saw something that came close to understanding. Angel's hand loosened, and Xander took a step back.
"Oi, what the bloody hell are you lot up to?" Spike asked as he came through the trees. Blood trickled from a slash in his face that ran from the outer corner of one eye down to his chin, and as he walked, his tongue snaked out and licked the blood from his split lip. His left leg was dragging a little, but his expression was one of pure, violent glee.
"Master," Xander breathed softly in relief.
"So what have you nancy-boys been up to while I was off killing the new would-be master of the Hellmouth?" he demanded with a smirk. Xander could feel his legs tremble in the aftermath of his near panic attack. His first instinct was to go to his knees and press his cheek against Spike’s thigh, seeking the relief and protection and security that he always found at his Master's feet. However, the presence of the two men standing behind him made him suddenly self-conscious and so he stood and waited until Spike reached him and slid a bloodstained and strong arm around his waist, pulling him into his Master's side.
"Can't leave you lot alone for a second, can I?" Spike’s expression was feral, but his tone was almost affectionate.
"William," Angel only said the one word, but Xander could feel Spike's muscles twitch in response.
"Right then, thanks for the help, now get your bloody arses out off my Hellmouth." Spike softened his words with a smile, but it wasn't a very soft smile.
"Perhaps that would be best," Wesley offered. When both vampires turned to stare at Wesley, Xander felt a flare of sympathy. After all, he used to be the one that would always open his mouth and say something that was unnecessary, inappropriate, or unwanted. Heck, sometimes it was all three. He'd found the whole not talking thing to be much easier on the ego than the talking thing. And again with the wonderment at how much he’d changed since the days of Droopy Harris.
"We should probably stop in and see the others while we're here," Angel finally declared. Xander could tell that Spike wanted to order Angel out, he wanted to be respected as the Master of the Hellmouth that he truly was, but that wasn't the relationship that he and Angel shared.
"Right then, you do that." Spike's arm tightened around Xander's waist and then Spike started walking back in the direction of Joyce's house. Without warning, Spike stopped and looked back at the two men still standing under the tree in the middle of the cemetery. "One last thing, Xander and me have some hunting to do, so we won't be around town for a while."
"Spike, do you think that's a good..." Angel never got to finish his comment.
"Bloody hell yes! You saw my boy fight, he moves like a demon, like a soddin' fury takin' his revenge. Don't go thinkin' he can't take care of himself because he's a whole sight stronger than Giles or Willow who keeps natterin' on to you when she thinks we aren't around to hear. We have business to take care of. So just keep your bloody nose out of it." Spike's words left Angel standing with his mouth literally open in shock, and Xander understood the feeling.
Without another word Spike turned back and hurried Xander off to the far side of the cemetery. Xander followed willingly, practically floating on a cloud of approval. Spike thought he was strong.
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Date: 2005-11-14 02:33 am (UTC)xander told angel off! sorta lol
and and he beat the hell out of a ton of vampires!
*happy face*
that fight scene was breathtaking, too, btw
xander's slowly becoming more confident, it seems, but still strong and quiet and dedicated to spike.. seems like a good combo to me
loved this
He really didn't think Angel and Wesley needed to watch him get put into a punishment position or get spanked. And really, if they did want to see that, Xander didn't want to know they wanted to see that because of the whole ew factor, well, that and his ego could do without either of them getting to see that little humiliation.
*snickers*
can just picture their faces if they did see it
*anxiously waits for more*
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Date: 2005-11-14 03:21 am (UTC)Ohhhh Pheew!!!!
Date: 2005-11-14 02:45 am (UTC)Thank the gods that he was just 'busy'!
More soon .... please?!
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Re: Ohhhh Pheew!!!!
Date: 2005-11-14 03:22 am (UTC)But the fact is that Spike needed to take care of this intruder before he could go off and take care of his boy's problem. So now it's off to find the mother
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Date: 2005-11-14 02:58 am (UTC)Droopy Harris may be gone, but thankfully we still have Xander-babble. *laughs*
Wow! Great fight scene!! Loved Spike telling Angel off. Sweeeet!
Kat
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Date: 2005-11-14 03:26 am (UTC)And I'm glad you liked the fight scene! Those are fun to write
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Date: 2005-11-14 04:07 am (UTC)Good job showing Wesley in a better light. The way he continued chanting even while fending off attackers was impressive. Xander's sympathetic look seems to herald a new appreciation. And Wesley appears to see better than the others Xander's new mode of operating. That makes sense, given how much he has changed himself. Wonder what he and Giles have been saying.
I loved Xander's pride and pleasure at the end. I love it when he can actually accept praise.
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Date: 2005-11-15 03:33 am (UTC)And really, I think Wesley was being sympathetic and kind back at the hotel. However, Xander was seeing Wesley through his memories of the man Wesley had been in Sunnydale. Yep, that is a little ironic given his own frustration about the fact that people judge him by who he used to be.
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Date: 2005-11-14 04:14 am (UTC)I also like the parallels between Wes-after-Angel and Xander-after-slavery. both are not who they used to be, but are stronger, more capable, and reliable. I think the only difference between them is that Wes was never forced into demon slavery. I also think that is why he understands Xander more than Angel, or Giles, probably even more than Spike - though that is debatable.
I know when initially faced with this new Xander, Wes was not so confident in the changes that had been wrought in him, but after the fight and the way Xander continuously fought to remain close to Wes, he knows him. That was really nice to see.
And Spike, disappearing for longer than anticipated and coming out like it was nothing! Hallefreakinlujia.
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Date: 2005-11-15 03:35 am (UTC)You're right about Wesley and Xander as well. They have a lot of similarities in that difficult times have forced them to become new people, and stronger people. However, both of them still tend to get dismissed because of who they used to be.
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Date: 2005-11-14 04:35 am (UTC)interesting look at Wes!
can't wait for more!
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Date: 2005-11-15 03:36 am (UTC)And I'm glad I redeemed Wes for you. I actually love him as a character.
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Date: 2005-11-14 06:34 am (UTC)Stupid Angel for trying to stop Xander from finding his Master. Great that Wesley could see something in Xander Angel couldn't.
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Date: 2005-11-15 03:40 am (UTC)And Angel is doing what Angel always does: annoying the crap out of people while trying to save them when they don't need saving ;-) (Don't let AliceKate see that I said that)
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Date: 2005-11-14 08:20 am (UTC)Your previous commenters have hit my main points, but I'm going to repeat them, just to show I appreciated them all, too!
Clever Spike--killing two birds with one battle by getting rid of the intruding master vampire while also setting up a situation where the new Xander can show off himself and his fighting skills to Angel and Wes.
Great to see that new Xander coming together here: the graceful, assured fighting, the ability to remain silent and see that as a powerful position (while maintaining his inner babble), the decision not to get down on his knees and the decision to challenge Angel.
And I agree with the person who noted that Wes is in a better position to see these changes because (1) he's changed so much himself and (2) he is, after all, a Watcher!
Great chapter! Now off to save mother and child! Thanks!
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Date: 2005-11-15 03:43 am (UTC)Xander is becoming a much stronger and quieter version of the man he used to be. But he still is and always will be Xander inside. And I think you're absolutely right about Wesley. Wesley and Xander have a lot of similarities in that both have a rather dorky past the doesn't match with the strong people they become later.
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Date: 2005-11-14 09:50 am (UTC)That was good! C'mon, this was not an angsty chapter, it was an adrenaline rush. Xander got his demon killer on, he kept it together with Spike out of sight, he held his own with Angel and Wes, he told off Angel (and Angel was plain stupid not to take another couple steps back at that point, not good to get between a focused, worried, adrenalized Xander and his Spike), and he got some fab praise from his Master. Yay Xander - you go, boy!
Nice clean description of the fight, I could follow it easily (sometimes I have trouble following complex action scenes, but not yours). Loved the description of Wes's spell sliding off Xander "like a snake"; really, just fabulous. And, having had the priviledge of holding a really big snake once (I think it was a boa constrictor, about 6-7 feet), I can say with confidence that it's about the best analogy I've ever seen for the sensation you're trying to evoke ... the feeling of compacted energy, the soft dry slide of the scales, the weight that you can sense more than feel because it's alive weight not "dead" weight. I'm just all over that description, it really struck me big time.
There is a conversation that I regret not hearing, the one between Xander and Wes that almost happened just before Xander became aware of the approaching attack. Having him take part equally in a conversation with someone besides Spike can only reassure everybody, though the pitfalls (the triggers) buried in even the most innocuous discussion makes it a bad idea just before a fight where Xander needs his concentration and confidence (and awareness) focused on what's happening now, not on the past and/or his training. So, better it didn't happen, but I still would've liked to hear it.
And good on Wes to begin seeing Xander as something more than a pitiable victim. Yay. Maybe, even if that conversation didn't happen, he can still slip a reassuring word into his next conversation with Giles (or Willow?). Though ... really, something needs to be done with Giles before he permanently damages his liver. (So what's Ethan up to in this universe? Is he an enemy or Giles' lost love? Though ... Ethan/Giles is usually better if Giles is in a healthy mental place, so maybe nevermind.)
And the image of Spike, all feral and triumphant and ignoring his owies, almost bursting with energy, is always a favorite. He's so adorable like that.
Finally ... I actually opened this page before you'd gotten any comments. But I had something else to do before I could settle down to read, then I fell asleep in my chair! ::embarrassed look:: When I woke up, I went to shut down the computer before heading off to bed and saw this waiting for me, so I woke up properly. And thanks to you, I'm now awake and energized enough to tackle one last chore that needs doing before I do get to bed. (Someday I'll turn my weird schedule around ... or maybe I just need to accept it and go with the flow.)
Looking forward, as always, to the next chapter.
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Date: 2005-11-15 03:48 am (UTC)I'm glad you enjoyed the fight. I tried to describe Xander in a way that made it clear that this fight was both cathartic for him because he is taking revenge against the demons and beautiful because he has found a new grace and strength in his fighting. And I know what you mean about the way a snake feels a crossed your skin. It's an amazing feeling, and they're really wanted to give the magic that sense of physical presence.
I think you're right though the Xander isn't ready for a full blown out conversation. He still has too many hotspots and triggers that he hasn't faced yet, and until he can deal with those on his own, he really needs a "safe" place to explore those feelings. Talking with Wesley in the middle of a graveyard on the hell mouth is not exactly a safe place.
You know, I think Wesley probably recognize to Xander's strength the entire time. But back at the hotel, Xander was seeing Wesley as the man Wesley used to be: the wimp who showed up back in Sunnydale. One of the problems with writing a story that's very strongly at one point of view, is that that's the main characters prejudices tend to get reflected in the story far more than perhaps they should. But I really can't figure out another way to write it.
And yes, I love a feral and triumphant spike myself!
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Date: 2005-11-14 01:00 pm (UTC)"The old Xander would never have been so patient, he realized with a start. A tiny, hesitant bubble of pride flickered through him."
"Giles wasn't exactly in good shape himself, and at least Xander could admit that he was completely and totally screwed up. That gave him one up on Giles."
"Xander watched as two stray vampires took off across the grass with their newly recovered speed, and Xander took one running step in their direction. Then he stopped. "
"I need to find Spike,"
"He'd found the whole not talking thing to be much easier on the ego than the talking thing. And again with the wonderment at how much he’d changed since the days of Droopy Harris. "
I loved how you handled this. We're really starting to see the new Xander, with wonderful mixes of the old and new. He's noticing his own differences, cataloging them and deciding that it might just be ok to be this new person. He's becoming much more self-confident in himself and his own decisions. It was terrific that it seemed that Wesley saw that and understood. To me, that's exactly the kind of outside affirmation he needs. Spike's support is necessary, but having others slowly see that they can't remake the old Xander will be crucial as well. At least that's my take on it. Hopefully at some point, be can get that from the people that used to be the closes, Willow and Giles.
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Date: 2005-11-14 03:21 pm (UTC)Keep it up, you're doing fantastically
And as ever, thanks for sharing ^_^
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Date: 2005-11-15 03:51 am (UTC)And thank *you* for the feedback
BR 7
Date: 2005-11-14 04:03 pm (UTC)Xander followed willingly, practically floating on a cloud of approval. Spike thought he was strong.
Slowly, piece by piece, a new stronger Xander is emerging. One day I think he could have a heart to heart with Wesley who sees more than the others. But that's in the future. Now it's off to find MTB. BTW I think he should keep a paperclip in his pocket just in case *g*
More Wednesday?
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Date: 2005-11-15 03:53 am (UTC)This time, I'm not sure whether there will be a new chapter out on Wednesday, or whether he'll have to wait until the weekend. The next chapter is being a little stubborn. So of course, I ran off and wrote another chapter later on instead of fighting through the next section. *shrug* I sometimes think the Muse does what it wants to do
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