lit_gal ([personal profile] lit_gal) wrote2009-08-03 08:03 pm

Twisting the Hellmouth August Challenge -- Sentinel/Buffy

Title: Not So Similar
Author: Lit Gal
Rating: FR 13 (SAFE)
Crossover: Sentinel/Buffy
Pairing (if any): none
Disclaimer: PetFly owns Sentinel and Joss Whedon created the Buffy characters
WC: 952

Summary: This is a sequel to If I Know Not Love (http://www.litgal.org/Standalone/Knownot.htm)
Long and short of it... Blair is gay, Jim is not, and after Blair has a terrible accident, they come to terms with the fact that is never going to change.

Warning (if any): none
Author's notes(if any): Day 3



"So, you're moving over to anthropology? It looks like you have an impressive background in psychology, why the move?" Blair asked his latest advisee. The man was handsome, and he moved quietly, kind of like Jim. When the guy had first shown up in his Anthro 301 class, a little part of Blair searched the man for signs of Sentinel senses, and he kept one hand on the phone he kept hidden in the side of his wheelchair. Oh yeah, no way was he making that mistake again. However, by the end of class, he'd decided the guy was a soldier, which accounted for him pinging Blair's Jim radar. Well, that and he was cute. Cute and military always pinged Blair's radar.

The guy shrugged and dropped into a chair as the last of the undergrads cleared out of the room before getting stuck talking to the professor. "I just don't think I can deal with psychology anymore."

"Oh man, anthropology has just as much psychology, so don't think you're going to get away from the ethical standards or the deviant personalities." Blair smiled encouragingly, even as he tried to get this guy to see that changing fields wasn't going to fix whatever screw he had loose in his life. It would, however, force him to take a bunch of undergrad classes that he was probably not going to enjoy.

"I just want to study societies, not individuals." He leaned back and watched Blair with caution in his gaze. Oh yeah, he was waiting for Blair to make an argument so he could counter it. Man, maybe it was built into soldiers to turn every conversation into a fucking contest of wills, but this guy was enough like Jim to drive Blair right up a wall. He rolled his wheelchair forward an inch.

"Why?"

This guy, Riley Finn, blinked in surprise. Yep, just like Jim, he acted surprised when someone wanted to truly listen to his ideas. And if he was really like Jim, he was about to totally shut down and demand that Blair just sign the paperwork where it required an advisor's signature. Thankfully, the wheelchair was a great defense against getting bullied, so Blair didn't expect this one to slam him up against a wall the way Jim had.

Riley leaned back in his chair and studied Blair for several long seconds. "Why are you in a wheelchair?" he asked. Okay, that was a surprise, but a non sequitur was just as much of a non-answer as Jim's favorite—the clenched jaw. Although, to be fair, Jim had mellowed in his middle age.

"A woman on a cell phone hit some ice and slammed into me in the middle of an intersection." Blair wasn't bothered by the details of that accident. If anything, he was grateful that his injury had helped to repair the damage between him and Jim. He could live with Jim's lack of lust, but the idea that Jim didn't love him as a brother, as a human being, that had been slowly killing him. The fact that Jim was not gay was an open sore, but at least it wasn't a fatal one. "So, most people avoid that topic, I assume you're going for a point."

Riley leaned forward. "I am. Why does our society value convenience so much that someone would be on a cellphone when driving? I can't believe the woman was evil. I can't believe that an individual carries all the blame when an entire society forms a set of rules, and that individual lives by them without questioning the ultimate consequences. So what I want to know is how does one culture decide to value tradition, and another progress?"

"Gemeinschaft and gesellschaft," Blair echoed softly, shocked at the flow of words. Clearly Riley and Jim were not the same. Riley nodded his head, not even shielding the confusion and pain for one second before he looked away and shook his head and a wry expression replaced the raw emotion.

"Exactly. I see things going wrong. I see good men and women getting caught up in something so big that they can't seem to disengage long enough to really evaluate their own action. What I want to know is why a culture allows that to happen."

"Oh man, figure that out, and they're going to be throwing Nobel Prizes at you," Blair pointed out. Riley smiled and gave a half shrug.

"I know. I know it's impossible to understand..." His voice faded, and Blair understood that Riley wasn't searching for some esoteric truth; he wanted to understand something that had gone horribly wrong in his own life. It wasn't the best reason to get into an academic field, but it wasn't the worst, either.

"Hey, buy me a cup of coffee, and we can talk about specializations and see if we can minimize your time in with the undergrads," Blair offered.

Riley looked up, and for a half-second, Blair could again see pain etched deep. However, Riley covered that with a boyish smile. "You bet, prof. One cup of coffee coming up."

He picked up his bag and slung it over his shoulder before heading for the door. Pushing his chair after the other man, Blair wondered if all soldiers came out with such deeply hidden damage or if the damaged ones just somehow gravitated to him. Either way, he should call Jim and let him know he was going to be late getting to the station—Blair had a feeling that this one wasn't going to be rushed into telling his stories, and Blair had an equally strong feeling that he really wanted to know what Riley was hiding behind his smile.

[identity profile] laurie-ky.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 03:21 am (UTC)(link)
Good to see more of this universe. And it's always a treat to see Blair in his academic role.

I've recorded If I Know Not Love, but I'm waiting to edit it until I get my new external hard drive that has oodles of more space. I'm kind of afraid of messing up my recording program if I try and use it with the little space I have left.

Laurie

[identity profile] lit-gal.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
In this universe, the wheelchair has pushed him more toward the academic side, but he certainly has a good life. And don't worry about the delay. I really like that story, but I doubt it's on many people's lists of "favorites"

[identity profile] auroradream.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 03:22 am (UTC)(link)
ooooo! I like this pairing! I wants to know more! :)

I can so see Blair and Riley becoming friends or even more. They fit in an endearing way.

Loving all your fic a day stories!

[identity profile] lit-gal.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 03:56 am (UTC)(link)
I can really see them being friends... who men who are interested in the science of humanity and who have seen some horrible things. And I agree... they might even become more than friends.

[identity profile] shakatany.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 03:36 am (UTC)(link)
Interesting crossover using Riley of all people.

There's one bit that bothers me. Blair says a driver slammed into him but Riley says "I can't believe the woman was evil." Was it in the paper? Is that how Riley knows the driver was a woman?

Shakatany

[identity profile] auroradream.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 03:49 am (UTC)(link)
I think Riley is talking about Walsh...

[identity profile] lit-gal.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 03:54 am (UTC)(link)
Whoa... I thought Shakatany caught me in a mistake, and I've fixed it so that it was a woman on a cellphone instead of the gender neutral "driver," but I really like this. Both women--the driver and Walsh--did something evil believing they were fine.

[identity profile] shakatany.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 04:06 am (UTC)(link)
Your subconscious certainly knows where it wants you to go *g*

Shakatany

[identity profile] lit-gal.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 03:58 am (UTC)(link)
In the Buffy universe, Riley is closest to Jim. Both have been betrayed by superiors, both are flawed but good men, and both have a stoic strength to them. But unlike Jim, Riley does have an academic side.
kaleecat: (Default)

[personal profile] kaleecat 2009-08-04 03:38 am (UTC)(link)
Totally wasn't expecting Riley; but that might be because I've been reading xander fic lately. (tho there is this one awesome xander/riley fic...)

I like this--it lets us experience Blair at his best, and provides a window into the deep seated damage from Riley's time with the Initiative.

Another wonderful short moment, conveying so much of the characters and their lives.

[identity profile] lit-gal.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 03:59 am (UTC)(link)
I love Xander... you know I do... but I don't think he could keep up with Blair academically. I think Riley could, and this Blair is so much more a part of the academic world that I think he'd make the better friend.
kaleecat: (Jim-Blair:  CSI Cascade)

[personal profile] kaleecat 2009-08-04 04:18 am (UTC)(link)
oh, well, I wasn't thinking so far as academics and Xander. :-) It was more I wasn't thinking beyond I've been reading xander-fic, so he'll be in it. My brain gets stuck that way sometimes.

I like Riley; and he works in this setting. And I can see the possibilities. Truthfully, I know it was a show focused on The Sentinel, but Blair needed friends in his own world (academics). So I like it when stories remember that side of him, and give him friends that fit that side. Riley could feed that academic side for Blair, but also if they became friends, interact with Jim & his world as well.

So it's good. And another little gem from you. I think its so cool of you to do this challenge. I pondered it for 10, okay 15 seconds, then I realized that it would be just another tool for procrastinating from the diss of death.

[identity profile] bumpkin-is.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 03:46 am (UTC)(link)
I liked this - I can see how Riley would want those type of questions answered, even the varied 'whos' he's thinking of when he mentions them. Very nice, thank you so much for sharing,

Marns
~pN

[identity profile] lit-gal.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 04:07 am (UTC)(link)
I really do think that Riley is going to be haunted by these questions. And given that his unit was still fighting demons for the government, I doubt that was the last time he saw something horrible done in the name of good.

[identity profile] knitty-woman.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 03:57 am (UTC)(link)
So not what I was expecting. But I love this universe, and will take whatever I can get in it.

[identity profile] lit-gal.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 04:11 am (UTC)(link)
In this universe, he's not going to get Jim, so I thought he needed someone.

[identity profile] 1-mad-squirrel.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 04:59 am (UTC)(link)
Love this.


Also Laurie ;-)

[identity profile] lit-gal.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 01:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you!

Love this

[identity profile] skeptic7.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 08:36 am (UTC)(link)
I never thought of Riley as academic, but he was a TA for Buffy's freshman course so he has a lot deeper academic background than normally seen. I can see why Riley wants to look at the values and the dysfunctions of societies after the Initiative fiasco more than the same problems with individuals. Maggie Walsh wasn't a lone villian but part of a branch of a legitimate military organization. So is Riley going to study close knit subcultural and tribal groups in modern societies and their self referencing ethics? He can study gang of youths, criminals, bankers, teachers and cops. Blair can offer up Dean Edwards and Rainer administration as a semi criminal subculture.

Re: Love this

[identity profile] lit-gal.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 01:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Although the show didn't dwell on it... probably because of those unethical TA/student issues, he is an academic. Being a TA means he had his masters and was working on a PhD, so he really is an intellectual match for Blair. And yeah, after the messes he's seen, I imagine he does want answers. Actually, he would fit in pretty well with the CPD, wouldn't he?

Re: Love this

[identity profile] skeptic7.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 02:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Its possible to be a TA with only a bachelor's degree while going for a masters. Riley wasn't teaching indepenently but as an assistant to Maggie Walsh. This could take away some of the age difference between him and Buffy, but he still shouldn't be dating her as long as she is in his class.

Re: Love this

[identity profile] skeptic7.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 03:47 pm (UTC)(link)
While Blair and Riley can't date as long as Riley is a student, Blair can still invite him home for dinner. If this happened more than once, Jim would run a background check and be horrified at the blank spots in his record; or worse yet Jim would find the background was falsified.
Or Riley could give Jim a shovel for Xmas present and tell about the Scoobies' "shovel talk"

[identity profile] seadragonlady.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 11:15 am (UTC)(link)
Oh yes very good. Nice to see Riley wriggle out of the pigeonhole Blair was thinking to fit him in. I can see them being good friends at the very least. Your August efforts are proving very diverse so far, well done.

[identity profile] lit-gal.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 01:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Blair really was making some big assumptions there, but Riley isn't Jim... hopefully in more ways than one.

[identity profile] mulder200.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 11:35 am (UTC)(link)
Nice! Yeah, I think Blair would be the perfect person to help Riley after the mess with The Initiative.

[identity profile] lit-gal.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 01:59 pm (UTC)(link)
I think Blair would be more interested in and more sympathetic to his moral and ethical dilemmas than Buffy was.

[identity profile] eithnex.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 02:30 pm (UTC)(link)
I liked this and I was surprised because Riley isn't my favorite character and J/B are one of my favorite pairs. But I could see where Blair's interest would come from I think Riley would make a good puzzle for him to solve. Thank you.

[identity profile] lit-gal.livejournal.com 2009-08-07 02:29 am (UTC)(link)
I don't think Riley was used well in the series, but I can see something really cool in his character. And yeah, if Blair can't have Jim, I do think Riley would make a good puzzle for him to figure out.

[identity profile] wickedchocolate.livejournal.com 2009-08-04 03:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Hi, I can't belive I didn't know this universe and it already has a sequel :-) I like the crossover with Riley (BtVS). There isn't much written about him and I am sure the ethnical questions/aftermath of the Initiative wasn't a big theme as well. To see how it changed him and his life as a person, a man and a soldier will be more than interessting. And with Blair in the mix, I am sure his mind will never be the same.

[identity profile] lit-gal.livejournal.com 2009-08-07 02:30 am (UTC)(link)
I do have a lot of universes, but I think that one doesn't get the attention because it's not exactly a happy ending. I think this Blair, who has come to terms with Jim's annoying heterosexuality, would find Riley fascinating both personally and professionally.

[identity profile] wickedchocolate.livejournal.com 2009-08-07 10:50 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, I would say it is not a bad ending even if it is not a happy "happily ever after" ending :-)
And I agree with you opinion, Blair and Riley can talk and interact on a whole different level, because of their e.g. academic backgrounds.
I am looking forward to more.

[identity profile] vinniebatman.livejournal.com 2009-08-06 06:02 pm (UTC)(link)
I think this would have been a good change for Riley. Very good interaction.

~Alice~

[identity profile] lit-gal.livejournal.com 2009-08-07 02:31 am (UTC)(link)
It would certainly be a very different one for him. I do see him as being straight, but if anyone could talk him around the bend, Blair could.

[identity profile] nerowill.livejournal.com 2009-08-06 10:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Riley is a complex character and I can just imagine him with Blair as an adviser. The fact that Jim can't love Blair 'that way' in this verse hurts, but it's good to see that Blair is living a good life anyway. :)

[identity profile] lit-gal.livejournal.com 2009-08-07 02:32 am (UTC)(link)
Riley is an academic, much more so than Jim, so he is closer to Blair's world. And yes, Blair is living and happy despite the fact his unrequited love is still unrequited and despite the fact that he will use a wheelchair for the rest of his life.