Now you have me wondering what line you were looking at! But yes, I have dropped some hints along the way.

And I'm glad that the internal rebellion works for you. The one part of recovery that we never saw in Beautiful Broken was Xander's anger. He needed to find and deal with that anger before he could put himself back together. But Spike is going to have a big psychological mess to clean up. However, in my mind, Spike's whole railroad spike torturing period was his own "angry" phase before finally accepting himself, so I think he understands.

And thanks for the grammar catches!